Tuesday, July 16, 2013

What would be the best thing in the world to do with The One?

What would be the best thing in the world to do with The One?  

For those not familiar with various science fiction pulp books and interesting trilogy I recently came across.  In a ST book series The One, who also refers to himself as Himself and Him etc., is actually a vengeful and spiteful entity that demands only submission.  Even when those mortals unfortunate enough to meet Him submit; He still destroys them.

So I wonder what would have been the best thing to do with Him?  In the books ... well I will not spoil the ending; but, I wonder if what someone I have met recently said is true.  Did Satan cut off God's limbs so that He could do nothing about our suffering, or is He the cause of our suffering?

I cite 9/11 and the Middle-East in, general, as reference points to ponder.  Did He fly planes into our buildings that day or did other humans using His name do that?

LLaP & Jolan Tru Y'all

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Time for some Truth.

To All,

Recently a long-standing obligation was satisfied and I am finally at liberty to say the Truth about several things.  Now the Truth is usually stranger than fiction so be prepared to not believe several of the things I will say, but also remember that the meat of what I want to say will be in literature form for all to read in awhile.  In the meantime I will simply tell y'all some of the more relevant things that are openly supported by facts and if any of those mentioned wish to deny it they can drag me into court and their dirty laundry out into the public for all to see; because I have nothing to hide because I have done nothing wrong.

The entire story will not be listed here, I am still writing it for personal publication and clarification, and not all of what needs to be put behind me has been put behind me; but the people in power over Liberty are behind me and I will write.

I do not know where to begin, but now that I have almost unlimited freedom I will leave y'all with a teaser trailer; and that is this story involves adultery, thievery, drugs and alcohol, home-wrecking and home-breaking, felonies  and misdemeanors, over a dozen dead animals some murdered, God and gods, men, women and children, money and credit, right and wrong.  In the end there will be aborted fetuses and aborted dreams, hopes buried and resurrected; and ultimately a minor treatise on the State of Texas' University system and Justice system and the tax-money sucking morons that populate both like a systemic infection.

I will say the Truth without hate, regardless of how hateful One would be, and say only that if I can put the past behind me, forgive and forget, let go without letting go of memories; then anyone can and I ask y'all to attempt the same thing.  Do not have your feelings hurt and if they are understand that I am an Instructor and that Learning is not child's play, it involves suffering and yes you will get hurt; also that The Truth Hurts ... and always will.


Saturday, February 2, 2013

The idea of rape.

The Idea of Rape.  

 Now this is an interesting topic, not really related to religion though; rape.  Or is it?

One can start by mentioning that one of the earliest stories in the Bible involves several kinds of rape.  The story of Sodom and Gomorrah opens with God and the two Arch-Angels, Michael and Gabriel, going off to warn Abraham that they intend to destroy the two cities because the cry against God is so great.  The reason for this warning is because Abraham's nephew Lot and his family live in the cities; and God is totally cool with Abraham, thus the warning.

Fast-forward a bit and we get to the part of the story that involves gang-rape.  Lot, trying to be a good host to the two Arch-Angels offers the prurient crowd his two virgin daughters in place of the two angels for the gang to rape; and he does and so they do.

After this God destroys the cities and Lot and his family flee.  After his wife is turned into a pillar of salt, for having lack of faith and fortitude, Lot is left with just his two daughters.  The daughters wake, traumatized as they would be, they reason that they are the only ones left on the planet and need to be fruitful and multiply.  Thus they set about getting their own father drunk and rape him.

So gang-rape and incestuous-rape are in the Bible and right at the beginning.  So the question of, is rape related to religion seems to be supported; and one can look at legal systems in Muslim countries to see that it is still used and supported by those that profess belief in The One True God.  It is a non-sequitor to me really.

I write about the idea of Rape being about Power and not Sex.  If rape is about power and not sex this makes anyone that abuses their power to their own ends without considering the fact that the person they are abusing is a Human being with their own feelings, thoughts and beliefs; is a Rapist.

So rape is an ugly word and an ugly act; but rape seems to be the way many humans function when dealing with others.  We can cite police abusing their power over peoples lives for either self-gain or actual self-gratification.  We can cite politicians allowing such things simply to secure their power, wealth and status.  We can cite an almost endless list of atrocities that can be considered rape, whether or not they involve sex.

A rapist is simply a person that is so angry at themselves and what their life should have been that the only way they can make themselves feel better about their terrible lives of failure, that they do not try to improve themselves or others, but rather prefer to destroy others.  One may say why do not they try and destroy themselves; as most self-loathing people do?  This is because they hate so much and are such cowards that to destroy you is better than destroying themselves.

Most people would rather drag you down and tear you apart by dragging you into their terrible lives then simply leaving you alone and trying to either make themselves worse or even better.  This commentary on people is narcissistic in the same sense that satellites are narcissistic; there are more satellites looking down on the Earth than there are looking out into space.  Self-absorbed much?

And rapists are; they only care about how they feel and have no concern for the feelings of their victims.

Rape it is about power ... and God loves power.


Thursday, December 13, 2012

The idea of forgiveness.

The idea of forgiveness.  

I am in a more tranquil state of late and have decided to move on and forgive all those that hate me.  Even though I am not Christian, and they are, thus incumbent upon them to forgive me.  I will forgive them just because I feel they may be spiteful, malicious and bitter people that, oddly, need my help and example.   

I hold no ill will to any in that town; their crimes speak for them and their god.  I need not hold hate in my heart or seek vengeance, I need to seek tolerance and forgiveness. 

I do not despise their lies nor their sociopathic preying/praying that still pries.  Their slander, and their stalking, speak for their town; and now I ask only for the beginning of the end; of our encounter. 

I seek to see y'all later in a more peaceful state and to this end I offer you my forgiveness and not my hate.  Please accept this statement as an example and not an exit.  I am touched y'all still think of me and my existence.  To this end, and the end of us; I offer you my simple forgiveness. 

LLaP & Jolan Tru Y'all. 

An idea about Pantheism.

 An idea about Pantheism. 

An idea I had about Pantheism; if Man Thinks and therefore he is does this mean everything Man thinks of becomes Real somewhere in the Universe?

I stated this idea out-loud in San Angelo, and it seemed to be well received, and it seems like a rational explanation for a lot of humans' belief systems and legends; well, 'rational' if you know what I mean?

I have recently seen movies and am starting to think that many ideas are valid to artists and those that feel tapped-out; so I will give a few out later on in my life.  I forgot the power of the First Right to not only destroy but to create.

I am becoming happier, even though people still tend to think I am duplicitous, but I use the label of 'atheist' simply for the benefit of others; since, ironically, looking-up the definition of pantheism is still a bit too much trouble for much to go through.

"I think therefor I am" ... thus if you think it it becomes real.  More philosophical than rational but then again ... I was dealing with San Angelo.

LLaP & Jolan Tru Y'all

Thursday, November 8, 2012

So I was called a pedophile!!!

The short and fast of this is, the morons in west-Texas actually thought I was a pedophile, and they slandered me with this label, simply because I was a proud atheist.

Now to most of y'all, this will seem unbelievably crazy and a crime to sue the town over.  Unfortunately I was going through some more serious issues at the time and holding a town full of colluding Christians accountable to American standards and laws was not on my plate.

But yes; this whole town of ignorant morons called me a pedophile simply because I am an atheist and proud of it.

Now just to be clear, to you rational beings, just because someone is godless does not mean they will do any godless thing.  I can look back on it now and laugh, even though that slander still follows me to this day, because it is just more proof that San Angelo is filled with masses of morons.  The hard evidence of this, and the waste of precious tax-dollars that town is, will come in later posts.

For now I am trying to get settled in to another new life, new American dream, and I am practicing doing what I love.  Thanks for any support and keep reading y'all.

LLaP & Jolan Tru. 

In the beginning ...

In the beginning I was lost in the vast western plains of Texas.  I was too old for still being in school and not being a doctor and was again on my own.  I was in a bad place mentally, emotionally, financially and personally, but was doing the only thing I knew how to do; and that was learn.

Now people tend to look down on what they call professional students, but I did not know this or care because I had been surrounded by professional students my whole life and it seemed to be a sign of gradual success.  I had never learned that most normal people try to push-down others, mock them and abuse them just to make themselves feel better.  I had forgotten these things because I had learned to mind my own business and had my own personal life.

I had been in a relationship for over a decade, nearly half my life at that point, and thought I had it all figured out.  I had given up on making ground-breaking discoveries, millions of dollars, wielding world power, or changing the world; I simply wanted to get paid and laid.

A god was no longer part of the equation, that guy left my life long ago, and no one seemed to care ... so I thought.  Apparently there are still huge sections of America that house and breed huge judgmental hypocrite-morons; and the name of such a place is San Angelo, Texas.

Now this town seems normal enough at first glance, over a hundred thousand residents, military base, movie theater and a college; plus they have computers and the internet and such.  So what could the problem be ... right?  Well apparently this God character. 

Now just like the terrorists that attacked U.S. over a decade ago used their belief in a God to rationalize and justify flying planes into our lives; the "Christians" in San Angelo do the same thing; just on a personal level.  If I were to tell you the whole truth, and I eventually intend to, you will think I am crazy; but it is not I who is crazy but small towns and the people that have a delusional belief system. 

Saturday, November 3, 2012

So the journey continues ...

Just writing to tell y'all that things are going well and I have found my True Love again ... writing.  I shall write about the things the religious have done; now that I have spent near a year researching how to write.

I will continue to inform y'all as to what was done to me in the name of God and how the religious interact with me; based on my own rational belief system.  I am also trying to get back into the whole spiritual thing since for a few months that seemed to really help; but as always, if you do not agree one-hundred percent with what the religious say and do then they ostracize you.

As Cicero said "To avoid criticism; say nothing, do nothing, be nothing."  

Also as the Romulans say "Knowledge is power, thus to be truly unknown is to be unconquerable.

LLaP & Jolan Tru Y'all!!!

Sunday, July 22, 2012


  As an atheist I never really concerned myself with god or gods.  I was raised fairly normal, I went to private Baptist school, went to church occasionally, read the Bible and even thought I could feel God's presence in my life.  There never seemed to be an issue between god and myself, and I never had a problem with him.  I did not have a negative experience with god or religious people in general; until recently.

  It all seemed to start when I went to an Atheist convention in Houston, the "out campaign" I believe it was called.  Oddly, I never felt a reason to hide it or even mention my lack of a belief in a god.  No one ever really asked, no one ever really seemed to notice me or even care about me.  My life seemed very normal and un-special for many years, exactly like I wanted it to be; but if Dr. Dawkins thought atheists should be more 'Out' then fine, I would try and do my little part.  What harm could it do?

 The answer to this question was a whole lot!