In the beginning ...

In the beginning I was lost in the vast western plains of Texas.  I was too old for still being in school and not being a doctor and was again on my own.  I was in a bad place mentally, emotionally, financially and personally, but was doing the only thing I knew how to do; and that was learn.

Now people tend to look down on what they call professional students, but I did not know this or care because I had been surrounded by professional students my whole life and it seemed to be a sign of gradual success.  I had never learned that most normal people try to push-down others, mock them and abuse them just to make themselves feel better.  I had forgotten these things because I had learned to mind my own business and had my own personal life.

I had been in a relationship for over a decade, nearly half my life at that point, and thought I had it all figured out.  I had given up on making ground-breaking discoveries, millions of dollars, wielding world power, or changing the world; I simply wanted to get paid and laid.

A god was no longer part of the equation, that guy left my life long ago, and no one seemed to care ... so I thought.  Apparently there are still huge sections of America that house and breed huge judgmental hypocrite-morons; and the name of such a place is San Angelo, Texas.

Now this town seems normal enough at first glance, over a hundred thousand residents, military base, movie theater and a college; plus they have computers and the internet and such.  So what could the problem be ... right?  Well apparently this God character. 

Now just like the terrorists that attacked U.S. over a decade ago used their belief in a God to rationalize and justify flying planes into our lives; the "Christians" in San Angelo do the same thing; just on a personal level.  If I were to tell you the whole truth, and I eventually intend to, you will think I am crazy; but it is not I who is crazy but small towns and the people that have a delusional belief system.